hey all, moving tomorrow

how are you doing? i hope it is good news.

since i will be moving tomorrow (aka packing frantically for 5 hours to drive for 2), i won't have time for any blogging. frowny face! but to raise spirits, i wanted to post 5 more of my favorite tunes and 5 pics that i hope you like. have an enjoy!


gray is awesome. this is not my favorite song of his, and for some reason he does touhou arranges, but his other works were not readily available on youtube. scratch that, here's another if you liked it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cl9lDMjYxyg&feature=related


what's up with the anime photos on these... anyway, this is shu okuyama. he does some amazing french house as well. i listen to this when i read scary stories on a website. i'll have to post another song that i really like of his later.


it's songs like this that make me hate youtube (not to mention the upload is low quality). the bass is ear shattering at normal levels if you play it in the car. mellow goth jazz. it's one of those songs that makes your eyes unfocus and your heart beat slower.


ambient dubstep. pacheko has other good songs, they just don't have any wobble in them. and i know how much all of you tards like wobble. and it has a video of a guy motocrossing in the desert! how neat. here's my favorite, since i know you all will like him: http://youtu.be/lvvzBgfThXE


i didn't like this song the first time i heard it. i thought the first two minutes were too choppy, then there was a second part that was really good, and then third part i was like "oh, wow." my mind was blown. this puts the intelligence in idm. it's like a math problem that solves itself after you're done listening.

now for photos!

i just love kittehs.

i found this gem on some site i can't remember the name of...

this one is old, but it makes me laugh every time.

hank hill is the character of the century. the everyman. everystraightman.

til wednesday-ish!

mind blockage

i have been 3 weeks sober. as a result, my mind has become increasingly cloudy and i am finding it extremely difficult to express my feelings and thoughts. in a couple days i will be moving to a place where i will not have to be clean, and all of the guilt will go away and maybe some of the anxiety. the issue i am dealing with now is should i stay sober in this new shameless environment and see how long it takes for my head to just wake up again, or break my streak and not have to even worry about it. i am really not sure if this blockade that has come back is something i want to break only in order to entertain myself again or not. i used to be able to look at something and associate many things in regards to its qualities, then continually build a thought train around whatever those qualities might be. now i look at something and visualize next to nothing outside of its face value unless i really concentrated. the thing is that i never had to actually concentrate; the train of thought would just realize itself and stick into my mind like a post-it. i already know that this sobriety isn't going to last much longer than a few hours once i am moved in, but it is going to have to be something i deal with again soon as i will have to find a place of employment at some point. then again i could just stay here in my chair and compose something that has actual meaning to me without having to deal with the slap in the face we humans call adulthood. i definitely wouldn't be able to do that as easily while sober. who knows if i'm even creative enough to do something others will find interesting enough to be good (though i believe 'interesting' and 'good' are foils when it comes to creative outlets, at least when viewed by the public). but i have always thought that trying is frugal, it is just my pessimistic outlook. my thinking is i do need to get rid of this wall in order to not feel boring or be uninteresting. here are some funny pictures i like!

i imagine he is making a sound like yoshi's straining floppy kick sound in yoshi's story. heeeeeh

til next time, space cowboyssss